Wednesday, June 3, 2009

To Be His Voice...

I am nervous, anxious, excited, blessed, humbled and confused. I have been asked to speak at a Christian Women's retreat later this summer. A wonderful woman from my church approached me with her request that I share about my love for my children, and especially considering that I was gifted by God with a child who is not necessarily the easiest child to raise. And, no, she isn't talking about my boisterous, hyper-passionate, imaginative, super-hero, Asher Tater Tot. Or, maybe she is. And, she didn't specify my journey through single-mommyhood to raise Spencer and somehow succeed at being a part of his survival to the current age of 20...or maybe she is. I think she's talking about my joy and love for my sweet Shawn, with a special extra chromosome and a diagnosis of Down syndrome. Or, maybe she's talking about all of them. I still don't know, because we haven't had our coffee-talk yet. But I've gotta tell you now, before I know anymore, that I am so honored.

I am blessed beyond measure to be the mommy of these 3 very specific boys. If I make no other mark in this world than to be a decent, pretty good mom....then I can die a happy woman. But that God would use me in any way to share His love, His acceptance, His hope, His provision, His glory, His story, His compassion, His plan, His kingdom and His gifts.....well, I could die happy, yesterday.

If you would please, I ask that you be in prayer for me that I would not seek personal glory, that I would not have a personal agenda, and that I would be used only as an instrument, tool, and a voice for whatever God is planning for this women's retreat. I only want to honor Him. I want to have fun and I want to be a servant to the women there. Thank you sooooooooooooo much for your prayers!!!!


Tracy said...

your message and your preaching will not be with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, so that our faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power. 2Cor. 2:4-5

Lord, thank you for how you have been preparing melissa all her life for what you have prepared for her-- in Jesus name!

Sarah said...

Praying that God will give you just the right words that need to be heard, and that the experience will be a joy for you and for your listeners.

Tracy said...

Man, I wish I could attend that retreat!! I love hearing what you have to say and appreciate, always, your authentic and honest tellings. They make me cry, laugh, wince with familiarity and grow. Bless you as you have blessed me!

Love, T