Sunday, March 1, 2009

Faded Lines

Ever since I've been home from Zimbabwe, I have had visible traces of the evidence for myself, that I was there. I have wanted to talk about them before, but it never came to me in simple words.

The first sign was on my feet. I wore sandals every day I was there...and I had tan lines. Funky lines, because they were funky shoes. I have appreciated the remnants of the lines since I have been home. They were a reminder to me that I went to a far off land and I did whatever I could do for the kingdom of God, in those days. I could not help but to wonder if Jesus had tan lines on His feet...I'm certain that He I am certain that they never ever faded away, because He never stopped serving. He never stopped walking and spreading His good news. He never focused on anything outside of the coming Kingdom. He never did anything outside of the will of His Father. He never stopped bringing hope to the orphaned, the widowed, the broken, the lost, the hungry, the guilty, the sinful, and the sick.

The lines on my feet have faded away, completely. They are gone. I had a good cry this morning when I realized this.

The other sign of visibility that is gone, are my final bug bites. The last have healed. The itch is only slightly there....and I know that even that will be gone in a few days. There is nothing left except my memories, my photos, and the heaviness that is in my heart for the work that I am doing on The Wellspring Fund. If you haven't read about it, please do.

There is this incredibe song by Brooke Fraser....she sings about Rwanda...but the words resonate so deeply within me. I hear this song and I cry, or at the very least, my heart pounds like bricks in my chest. The entire song is amazing....but my favorite part is the chorus. "Now that I have seen, I am without deeds is dead; now that I have held you in my own arms, I cannot let go till you are...."

For the skeptics that do not understand The Wellspring Fund:

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Michelle Brinson said...

I had some free time today and decided to do some catching up on my blog reading. I was captivated by your posts and ended up reading the last 5 or 6 of them. I'm so excited for you and The Wellspring Fund. Wow! I know God will honor your obedience to the desire He placed on your heart to do this. I've also loved reading about the boys. The video of them was just precious. Makes me look forward to the day I will have a baby boy to hold in my arms. I pray you are well and still look forward to our planning some time to get together.


Sarah said...

It almost sounds like you're feeling homesick for Zimbabwe--not there exactly, maybe longing for heaven. It's like you said about Jesus; he was always thinking about his mission. He couldn't be fulfilled if he wasn't about his Father's business. Thanks for sharing this beautiful post.