Here's the thing. I hate to check out books from the library. I don't want to "borrow" books because I like to keep books, make a home for them on a shelf. Or in a cabinet. I just don't want to return them. If I invest my time, focus and concentration, expand my heart and mind, I'd like to keep it as evidence. I like the reminder. It's like looking at old photos. Sorta.
I took Asher to the library recently and we checked out several books for he and Shawn. With them, its different. We have about 100 books too many for the kiddos...okay I realize that you can never really have too many books....but my house can have too many messes, and so for now the books fall into this category. When the boys are older and more respectful of books, no longer transforming them into villages, towers, and barracades for secret hiding places, I'm sure the sight of them standing vertically in order on the book cases will make me smile. For now, I like to take them back to the library, with pleasure. But the other day I did something I never do. I grabbed a book for me. I didn't investigate it at all. It's free right, so if it sucks I knew I didn't have to read it. But, it doesn't suck.
The book I am reading is: "The Short Bus....A Journey Beyond Normal", authored by Jonathan Mooney. It was published in 2007, and he is also the co-author of a book "Learning Outside the Lines". Jonathan was diagnosed with learning disabilities when he was in 3rd grade and after a series of testing, was placed in special education and had to ride the "tard cart" aka, short bus, to school. He is younger than me. He eventually graduated from Brown University with honors. The book is part of an experiment. He bought a short bus and drove it all over the United States and interviewed various kids and families with disabilities.
For this blog post, I really just want to quote him for the purpose of remembering it. I have to give this book back, dangit. It will not be living in my book case.
"The normal, norm, or normalcy do not exist in the real world of people, despite the fact that we are told that we can modify our behavior and train our bodies and minds to reach it. We are told to chase it - in our culture, in our families, in our lives. But when we chase it, it disappears. Normalcy is like a horizon that keeps receding as you approach it."
I love that quote. I've never felt "normal". This quote frees me in some way. And I hope to be able to instill in my children that they never need to chase the fleeting horizon. They can be who they are without ever feeling that it isn't enough.
And while I'm on the topic of books, I thought I'd recommend a few books that I've read recently in case you are looking for a good read. And by the way....if I finish it, I feel it is worth recommending. If I don't like a book I usually cannot make myself finish it.
"Crazy Love" - Frances Chan (a book about loving God, radically)
"Say You're One of Them" - Uwem Akpan (a collection of stories based on African children)
"Mrs. Kimble" - Jennifer Haigh (fiction, about 3 women over time who married the same man)
"The Great Gatsby" - F. Scott Fitzgerald (yes I just read this for the first time)
***"The Lost Continent" - Bill Bryson (FREAKING HILARIOUS)
"Redeeming Love" - Francine Rivers (Christian fiction)
"Same Kind of Different as Me" - Ron Hall & Denver Moore (LIFE CHANGING, AMAZING, TRUE STORY)
These are all great books worth reading. If you do, let me know. I'd love to know your thoughts.
What book do you think I should read next?
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